Confessions

I have not abandoned my experiment. I am still convinced of the necessity of it. I am just not doing well with life's curve balls. Our car broke down in a small mountain town in Mexico nearly four hours away from where we live. We had to leave the car with the mechanic because it we couldn't drive it at all (it literally turned off on the way down the mountain and refused to turn back on). So I have been without a car for nearly 2 weeks. I live in the forest at the top of a large hill. At the bottom of the hill is a gas station with a convenience store. There have been several times that I have been reduced to shopping at that little convenience store. I was doing pretty good trying to buy at least the small amount of meat/egg/dairy products they had and avoiding grains. But because it was kind of "wierd" food I bought bread for the children for sandwiches. The other night, we ran out of gas. I couldn't cook the chorizo and eggs I had planned on. But this pregnant lady isn't about to fast all night. I ate an apple/cheese sandwich with processed mayo on wonderbread. And then last night, when we were coming home late from a party (in a borrowed car), we got pizza. I didn't have gas to cook with yet since the gas company hadn't come out to fix the gas leak, and we were desperately hungry. Could I have done things differentlly? I think at least in the case of the pizza, I probably could have gone through Carl's Jr. for a low-carb burger even though I would have spent more money overall and it was out of my way.  The night with the cheese and apple sandwiches...maybe I should have skipped the bread. I need to be tougher. I need to be REALLY committed. I need help! Here is a picture of my husband and I at the party we were at the other day. I hate to post it. I just don't look like me (or at least the me I'd like to be). But this is an experiment. Will I be happier with the next picture I post? Will I be happier when I post a picture at 9 months than I am with this one at 6 months? Just a note to anyone who might read this that is expecting their first, not only did I start a bit overweight, but this is my 6th pregnancy and despite having fairly strong abs before pregnancy (no mummy tummy), the bump was noticeable VERY early.